I think I'm consistantly on tilt right now

-$20 today, so pretty much breakeven over 1400 hands, but obviously i was up $150 about 100 hands before i stop. I get fucked 3 times on the river and then just tilt double someone up for $100. I flopped 2 sets where basically the board went either 4 to a straight or 5 to a straight in the last 15 mins of play. that was SO gay.

I also had kind of a bad push into NicholosJ from pokerfox, and could saved myself $150, even though he kind played it ugly too. nvm

I actually won a gutshot + FD vs TP flip so if i hadnt won that I'd have been even more pissed off.

This 23k/24k breakeven stretch is really really fustrating, which makes me tilt 1000% times more easily thus making it hard to break out of the stretch, since i'm playing reasonably for the most part. There are some minor things I'm working on my game, however my huge tilt problem is river calling. its 'omg he must be bluffing, i call' which probably is worth around $2k to me this month in terrible river calls. Even yesterday at the gutshot when the turn brings a flsuh and river an obvious straight i STILL call with my set. wtf ok it was like 1/4 pot river bet but I CAN STILL FOLD.

[/tilt] we fucking hope.


Recently dell has fucked me over, tehy took £2.2k from me but didnt cancel after the order got cancelled. fucking jedi. give me my monies back you mofos. I'm gonn have to pay council tax, i gotta fill in UCAS applications and I got an email from the econ dept about my lack of attendance. I'm really not having a great month.

My biggest pot so far

played the deepstacked tabels on fulltilt and won my biggest pot ever. holla!


Full Tilt Poker
No Limit Holdem Ring game
Blinds: $1.50/$3
5 players

Stack sizes:
UTG: $1084.20
CO: $460.80
Hero: $848.50
SB: $678.95
BB: $612

Pre-flop: (5 players) Hero is Button with 9s ts
UTG folds, CO raises to $10.5, Hero calls, SB calls, BB folds.

Flop: ks 2s 3s ($34.5, 3 players)
SB checks, CO bets $34.5, Hero raises to $111, SB folds, CO raises all-in $450.3, Hero calls.

Turn: 7c ($935.1, 1 player + 1 all-in - Main pot: $935.1)


River: 9c ($935.1, 1 player + 1 all-in - Main pot: $935.1)


Results:
Final pot: $935.1
CO showed 2d 3d
Hero showed 9s Ts

SHIP IT! CRUCIAL

Look kid, Be Positive

My last few posts have all been whiney.

'oh i don't run goot.'
'ffs i cant win etc etc'
'i hate poker'

I can't be bothered to check as I type this whether or not I'm actually quoting myself, but its close enough. It's embarrassing to say the least

Well, I've taken some time to think about my game in general, and I think I can't get out of the thinking that everyone's bluffing me. This coincides with my recently style which has been TAG but with serious LAGTARD tendencies. I think I'll be reigning it in a little, and try and pay off a lot less on later streets when I feel and beat. What really pissed me off the other night is that i accidentally turned my comp off at the mains because i thought it was off, but i'd actually left it on to datamine. This totally fucks up the db that is open (gets a load of errors etc) and so I've now lost it. REALLY annoying as i've now done this twice, although the first time it was someone else's fault.

I think I've improved immensely just from sitting down and thinking like that. This week I hope for 8k+ hands I think, and am gonna play the morning session from 5am GMT if I can wake up in time. lol. I'm gonna start playing mixed limts because imo a lot of MSNL/HSNL players are having to do that due to game selection reasons, thus, me too. I'll be playing a mix of NL200/NL400, and maybe drop to NL100 as well if I get desparately short of games. I wanna see how playing in the morning is for a while, and am curious to see if I'll enjoy it. I think having to play at night and sleep during the day has begun to affect me, it also means I can start doing stuff during the day, like... erm... going to class.

Last night I sweated my homeboy, Rupert in the stars million. He came 23/24th (something like that) for $2500 after satelliting in. OMG we were both pissed as hell. $2.5k you say? Goot score you say? Nope. I was annoyed as hell and I didnt even have a stake in him. Man to get THAT close and still not holla at some green would tilt me so bad. I actually didnt see the exactly action, but he flops a set then gets pwned by a straight. Standard. I hope to take some time out and play some tourneys/ satellites this week, especially the stars million. Ya, I 'll probably only ITM like 15%-25% of the time but when I do I could a goot deal at teh FT. Holla at the big bucks. I'll also play some $22-$33 range MTTs I think, and also i wanna make like 500 FPPs on stars sometime, probably whilst playing the donkaments.

Some of the SSNLers are meeting up this weekend, as True is coming from Wales. If anyone's in town and fancies coming to the Gutshot, contact me either here or via 2+2 PM (my 2p2 name is tufat23).

This has been my worst month of poker ever

I feel like crying... well almost. Just dropped $1300 today after being up $600, so basically a $1900 downswing. HOLLA

I just ended up unable to win any flips. -$700 on the month is ok, if i played like 5k hands or something.

BUT SERIOUSLY WTF. I really dont know waht to say. I'm pretty much break even right now due to rakeback but this is so painful. I havent played the best poker this month, but I certainly havent played bad enough for the results. I think I'm gonna have to take a break and see wtf is up with the rest of my life right now. I've kinda ignored the rest of the world, so tomorrow I'm gonna rectify by getting hammered.

Blogging is lame

I used to be really into blogging, for some reason right now i hate it. My plan is to do a lot more so that i dont hate it anymore. Usually when people say this, its bad news for the blog, so apologies if this happens.

Funnily enough I'm in profit for the month. Lollerskates.
I'm also really pissed off with my computer situation, as i cant seem to actually buy one. WTF trying to give away £2200 and cant. Life is rigged. its to do with dell not shipping to anywhere but a debit/credit cards invoice address, and my mum being a bitch to me. Now i remember why i dont go home.

Lifewise, not much has happened. This is my current plan:

Tomorrow:

9am go to class.
11am go to gym
12am lunch biatch
2pm go to halifax, open an account for numerous reasons.
3pm watch tv.
5pm tidy room a little.
6pm eat food
7/8pm nap
10pm wake up, play pokah
12am, breakaments. eat a little, nap a little, datamine.
1am session 2
3 am. stop
3.30am 12-table the pokerstars LHE1/2

saturday: wake up after 2pm.

holla

aim is 2k hands tomorrow.
5k over the weekend.
week after play 10k hands
last 4 days of the month, 4k hands.

probably not gonna hit these targets, but w.e. i'm really struggling to play many hands when i'm winning, its weird.

fuck november. seriously

i hate this month. i'm not even questioning my play (although there are a few kinks im working on).

I got rivered so many fucking times I cant count, and tbh I'm not usually the kinda person who cares about beat.

pfff, one $1k will break me even i guess

October Round Up

Well, sorry I havent posted in a while. Been REAL busy. After dropping $3k in a week (dropped another $600 at crypto) I went to Wales to meet up with a 2p2er called True. Played some donkaments etc and pretty much broke even, maybe up like $100 or soemthing.

Since then I havent really played much. Above was the whole of last month -$600 from crypto. I'm +$400 in bonus from fulltilt, so thats ok. I have like another 6k-8k
hands in anotehr database which is now no longer working and i cant be bothered to figure it out properly. I was +$350 there.

So +$2500 on the month, but it really did suck tbh since I thought I'd break $10k that month. I'm gonna go again this month obv, but I think my target will be $8k and around 35k hands. I sucka t getting hands in but i'm feeling better playing longer sessions now.

The building work in my house is almost done and should be finished this week, however I'm dreading thurs/friday when we rip up the carpet. Its gonna be some serious hassle.

This month I'm +$800 or so after only $1k hands. I have zero hands because I went away to center parcs ( i know!) with some 2p2ers, trip report to come.

Currently trying to get myself a new comp for £2k, which includes a 30" monitor.

So BR is $13180 after -$2k for living expenses.

I know this post sucked but its 4pm and i havent had breakfast yet, and I'd thought I'd better knock one out before I let the blog die.
$3k is the most I've ever lost, and a few months ago it was my whole BR. When it happened i was kinda 'meh' about everything but later it really made me think. Sick that I can still make $2.5k after having a terrible week then not play for the last 10days of the month etc. I think $10k months are sustainable at NL200 if I can get the hands in. If I'm up around $6k this month I'll definitely just move to NL400 and hopefully find that $10k months are easy and be trying to push $20k and $30k months.